Thoughts

9-6-2005 - 6:24 p.m.

I've been on one of my semi-depressed kicks. As I got up to go to work today after four days off, I started having strange thoughts. Dangerous thoughts. Thoughts of missed opportunities. Of wasted time. Thoughts that make me want to wipe the slate clean and start my whole adult life over. I want an adventure. I want secrets. I want to be desired. I want to desire. I want things to be like they were years back, when my life wasn't so mind-numbingly predictable.

A few quotes I've had in my mind lately, from film and song:

-"Strange thoughts come into your mind, and you better think 'em." - Justine, in The Good Girl.

-"I've got the money, if you've got the honey." - Toby Keith, "Whose Your Daddy"

-"And I know it's not right, and I guess I should try, to do what I should do." - Selena, "I Could Fall in Love"

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